Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Dear Diary...

I don't like being stood up... twice... in two consecutive days. You made it up to me by still coming over last night, which I absolutely loved. But what happened? You said you would take me out tonight on our postponed date, but you blew me off. If you didn't want to go out, tell me. Don't ask me what I want to do, and then be like "it sounds like you don't want to go out". I don't put codes in my text messages. If I didn't want to go out, I would tell you straight up. I could have gone out to dinner with my mom and my sister, but I told them no because I was going out with you. I waited, and waited, and waited... for an hour. Nothing. You can't even text me back? I don't get it. Please, spare me this feeling next time.

Monday, December 13, 2010

What not to do on a date.

So I had a dinner date tonight, and I've been getting ready for it here and there for a few hours beforehand.
1) Did the dishes; so he wouldn't see a sink full of dishes.
2) Straightened up the shoes; so they didn't look messy.
3) Fixed the blankets and pillows on the couch; so it looked presentable.
4) Turn the lights on the x-mas tree; so it would look nice,
5) Cleaned off the stove top from food; if I gave him a house tour.
6) Made my bed, and fixed up the room for that house tour.
7) Did my hair, makeup (twice), and got dressed.
8) Spent 10 minutes, deciding which purse to use, and transferred all my stuff.
9) Put perfume on 15 minutes on before the date; so it wouldn't be too strong when we said hello.
10) I picked out my scarf and put it on top of everything; so it would be ready to grab.
11) Put my mittens in my pockets; so it could just grab my coat and put them on as I walk to the car.
12) Looked at the menu of the restaurant; so I knew what was cheap that I could order.
13) Waited patiently for him to come in the door.

Then I get a text, not asking where my house is, but postponing our date till tomorrow.
1) Take off outfit
2) Throw on sweats
3) Cry.


For future reference to any man. If you know you might not make it on time or at all, tell her right away! Not minutes before the date. All you have to do is say, "I just want to give you a heads up, it may not happen, but just in case..." Given it was a legit reason, but it would have been nice to stop at number 8.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Exams are BS.

Exams are cruel and unusual punishment. You want to know who excels at exams? People who are good at taking them. They don't measure knowledge of the class, only what someone memorizes last minute and regurgitates it back up on the exam. What about those who are not good test takers? We are the ones that are punished. We may know the material, but when it's in ABCD form, its like I'm looking at a game of Who Want's to be a Millionaire? and I wanna take my $200 and leave. Shouldn't a grade depend on what the student did all semester? I don't even remember what I ate for lunch yesterday, how will I remember what socialist created which theory and why? This is cruel and unusual punishment. It's hurting students, teachers, and our school system. We need a reform that significantly reduces the points an exam is worth. If a huge project was 100 points and took 3 weeks to do, that should be worth more points than a 70 question exam that I took in an hour in a half and is worth 200 points. Do the math. Doesn't seem right does it. Our school systems are academically abusing us.

Friday, November 26, 2010

My own (Post) Secrets

I've liked you for over a year, and never made a move. Now that I found someone that likes me, you step back in the picture. Ill always like you, but I cant wait forever for someone that isn't willing to commit.

I always say what's on my mind, and some of it just might sound stupid. You make fun of me, and I just laugh it off. But when I'm being serious you look at me like I'm stupid. I laugh it off, but inside I'm hurt that I'm nothing more than a joke.

I have low self esteem, so I try to please everyone. Even if I'm unhappy doing it.

I broke up with the one person I really liked because I was afraid I would be made fun of for dating him.

Thursday, July 15, 2010


"I always like to look on the optimistic side of life, but I am realistic enough to know that life is a complex matter." - Walt Disney

True story. My day hasn't been the best and I was trying to search for the perfect quote to lift my spirits. I liked this one because it speaks the truth. I try to include everyone in everything. I don't leave anyone behind. I always walk with the last person to leave, even when no one takes the time to reciprocate that towards me. Tonight was Pop Idol. So, while everyone was getting invited to be apart of an act, no one thought to even ASK me. I felt so unbelievably left out. I thought I had good enough friends here to hang out with, and thought they would invite me to be apart of their group. The part that hurt worst was that people in my a/c team did an act without me. Also, all my sorority sisters here decided to do a skit... with out me. How are we "sisters" when you leave ONE out. I was hurt, alone, and it was the most miserable thing to watch. I tried so hard not to cry, and I almost did every time I saw an act go on. Im so glad its over and had to suffer through that. I had to be strong and couldn't let my feeling get the best of me again. Tomorrow is a new day and I pray that its not like this ever again. I don't want to feel abandoned. I felt like I was at home again, I thought I got away from that. I feel like Im repeating myself, but I have no one to talk to here. No one understands what that feeling was. I just wish I could read minds. I want to know... do they really like me? Do they hate me? Do they talk behind my back? Why?

And it doesnt help when my campers are even asking me "are you in it" "why aren't you doing a skit". Its hard to know that no one wanted you. One thing that made me feel a little better was that all day ppl asked "are you doing pop idol" and my response "No one invited me". I would always get "well Im in this many", the oh well look, or just blow me off. But when 2 counselors, Lea and Lisa, responded "aww grab some black clothes and be in ours". It was a sweet gesture (and impossible one cus it was 10 min till show) but regardless it was sincere and made me want to cry even more cus Im the most emotional person ever and I HATE it. I also hate that Im so insecure. UGH! Also, today we had cookout and Ashley and Kirstie always end up serving food first and I never am able to cus Im late and I feel really bad. I kinda get the feeling that they are upset that I sit with the girls and get food with them when they serve. Especially when they asked the girls where I was and they all said "idk" when I was right behind them. Ugh. I wish this camp didn't drill rules into our head the first week. I wish they would have told us the ways of the camp activities. The cook out rules. The songs. I feel like I miss the memo... everyday.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010


So the computer Im using is all in Polish cus the kitchen staff changed the language settings andddd I cant change it back. Therefore, I have to comment instead of a new post.

Today is the first day I did not get a free slurpee =(
But I biked 2 miles with Katherine. Made it to Meltizer Parking and back BARELY with all the hills!!! I was proud that I finished tho. I proceeded to walk to the geese poop infested baseball field for an enormous game of Ultimate Frisbee. I learned to follow through (keep your wrist straight instead of bending it while throwing). Then collected balls for the softball toss. Fiona was hissed at by a goose and also called me Dani ALLLL DAY! Dont know why I didnt correct her but I hate being called that. I was exhausted!

Evening activity was a movie, Bandslam. It was good so far but missed the ending cus Amanda fainted twice and I had to get the doctor, who turned out to be Hannah's mom lol. It was really scary, but she had heatstroke. I helped pass out fruit juice for the first time and heard the best sayings...

Talia "I gave a half of my cookie to my friend".
Counselor "But your not suppose to do that cus now she has one in a half cookies"
Talia "Yea well its like Two in a half men. They dont need the other half but they still have it".

Jen "want some milk"
camper "eww no"
Jen "Shes going to get Osteoporosis"

Ooooh man how funny!! I also solved my first conflict between Madi and Lindsay and that was a good moment cus im not good in those situations.

Thats pretty much it. ADIOS!!

Monday, July 5, 2010


First day in Lake George and we go shopping, eat pizza, play bicycle by queen on a jukebox, go to the beach surrounded by mountains, see a guy walking a pig, more hippie shopping, see a car on fire, and now that Im back I missed seeing Shrek 4 with the girls =( and its 90 inside this building. Not a fan of the hotness!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Thursday, June 10, 2010


There are many guys who like me, but why can't it be the one I like?

On June 10th...

You know whats annoying. When people think I'm made of money and assume I will pay for them when they are short. Sometimes its a dollar or two, here and there. But it adds up. The worst is when I never get paid back. RUDE!

What made it worst is that I invited a friend to go to a game with me a month ago, and told them the price for the ticket. Game is tomorrow and guess what they texted me? "I thought you were paying for me and I would pay you back"? Really? You know what they say when you assume? You say you have no money, yet the trash in your car says you always have money for fast food. Oh and that text was also code for (since they have "no money"), Im going to have to drive there AND pay for parking. RUDE!

Moral of the story people... Save your god damn money! and if someone is nice enough to pay when your short money, PAY THEM BACK ASAP! Dont make it a habit cus its RUDE!

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Thought of the Day: 5/23

Men with long beards are nasty, shave it off, its gross. Im watching a movie and can barely watch the kissing scenes because all I see is Sara Jessica Parker eating long nasty beard hair in her make-out section.

Friday, May 21, 2010

What did I do?

Ive been in a volunteering mood lately. I worked at a construction site for Habitat for Humanity for 6 hours, and today I worked at a Murder Mystery dinner at my church for 5 hours. I cant get enough.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Thought of the Day:

I dont understand why in horror movies, when someone hears a sound inside/outside when they are by themselves in the dark they yell "is someone out there?!" For real? Yea the person who is HIDING from you and about to kill you with an axe is going to go flag you down with a flashlight and be "Oh, hey its me. Im bad at hide-and-seek. Glad you asked where I was."

Sunday, May 2, 2010


Just saw a picture of the flooding on Nixon's twitter, and holy shit, that stuff is scary! Hope it doesn't get worse. 

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Quote of the Day:

"There's no such thing as a tan Ginger".